Updated: May 23, 2019
By Amaya James
I was the very last one
I watched all the others go
Giving each one full support
But now I was truly alone.
Somehow I found my inner strength
For when my name was called
I stood up strong, confident and clear.
I was choosing a new life
Created all on my own.
In this moment I promised myself
I would no longer be a victim.
This isn’t how I choose my life.
I have other dreams, ideas and ambitions
Another plan and an entirely different mission.
From this point on, I would listen closer
To the wisdom that exists inside.
When a man says he loves you
But then can’t stay by your side.
This is not love.
This is something else.
And I don’t want that.
When things get rough and difficult
and don’t turn out as we plan
A true lover would stand beside you
and continue to be your MAN.
This was not a man.
This was a scared little boy.
And I don’t want that.
When they say they love you
Almost every single day
You want to believe they will support you
They will stay, hold you tight and let you know
Everything is going to be ok.
Yet here I was in this place
Cleaning up this mess
No support, no love, no respect
Just a woman, facing her fears all alone
United with others in their pale blue dress.
Amaya is Co-host of the feminist podcast FemmSouth, yoga teacher (RYT500, ERYT200, YACEP), conscious dance facilitator, transformational coach, & women’s empowerment advocate. Amaya works with students and clients to deepen their understanding of self, other & universal consciousness, through movement, meditation, & personal empowerment.
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